This is the song that triggered the topic of this blog. You might want to "right click - open in a new tab" so you don't lose this page. Sorry, was too lazy to put in fancy HTML that is not readily available in my "techy" lexicon.
I'm Limited... You Can Do All I Couldn't Do.
Standards. For ourselves. If you're anything like me, the pinnacles of your own standards are out of view because they're just too darn high. For me, (and maybe you, too, if you can relate to the previous sentence) I've set standards that seem to laugh at me from somewhere up there, from the high peak upon which they sit. If they could talk, they'd probably be saying something like, "Doofus, you can't reach us... or even see us! Mwuahaha *evil music plays here*!" But then, they're so high-in-the-sky that I don't hear 'em at all.
Yup, this is me. I've come a long way in accepting that I have limits and that it's okay. I'm limited. And there will be people better than me in all aspects of life. They can do things I can't do. I along with many other people (I am assuming?) fail to accept this. Fortunately, it's simply resolved by taking a step back from that high tower of standards piercing the upper stratosphere and taking a glance at them - at yourself - from a distance.
My worst enemy holds these standards way up there. His name is Perfectionism. He makes me tired when I don't feel like I should be. He makes me spend extra time on things that should take seconds. He makes me appear to have OCD tendencies (no offense to anyone). However, through the years I have come to accept him as the one who presents me with the life challenges to prove myself to be unlimited. I am continually gaining understanding of how much this "characteristic" of mine is actually contributing to some of my better qualities. I just need to remember those qualities and find more of them. And, he also reminds me that all the things other people can do, they really don't matter; maybe I can do all I couldn't do - if I try.
I rely on others in my life to push me over the tougher peaks and drag me through the deeper valleys of my love-hate relationship with good ol' Perfectionism. Becoming a better person, I have found, is a choice you need to make and take action on. However, we are a societal species, so interaction with others, both good and bad, are important catalysts for our self-improvement.
Because I Knew You...
My friends, my enemies, my coworkers, my bosses... my evil bosses. They've all played a part in the creation of ME. Yup, even if I disliked you from day one, trust me, you've given me a piece of life that I would not have experienced with anyone else. So with this I say, "Thank You."
"Like a stream that meets a boulder halfway through the woods." Conflict creates beautiful things in the world around us; conflict is a natural occurrence. Valleys, rivers, beaches, even diamonds, are all products of conflicting forces and elements. If we could see the people who have caused us hurt in life in this same light, we might spend less time bulking about bad relationships, fights and mutual misunderstandings. Easier said than done? Errr, ask me again later. :)
Like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes the sun. For the good people we meet, hopefully we are attracted to them and make them a positive inclusion in our lives. They teach us things about life and about ourselves and we hope to keep these people at our sides for a lifetime. They serve as constant reminders of how we continually grow and improve - and gain positive things in life because of our own action of simply living!
I Have Been Changed for Good
Going back to my friend Mr. Perfectionism, well... he sometimes acts like the little red incarnation of a "devil" sitting on my shoulder, whispering negative hullabaloo into my ear and just making me upset about things in life that I don't like or don't agree with. I'm almost 30 years old and I am finally standing up to him on a regular basis when he is in this mode.
Our lives are like stories that are being written by the nanosecond. The only thing is, there's no editing. What you see is what you get and there's no going back to do spell-checks or censoring. We live with what we're dealt, whether good or bad. This is where it's a matter of what we perceive and what we accept. I think this is something I and probably most of you would like to work on a little more each day, huh? It's okay. Accept it. We are limited, but, only if we allow ourselves to be.
For all of the people I have met in my life, I do believe I have been changed for the better... Because I knew you I have been changed for good.
Afterthoughts...
This blog should be labeled as "babble" but then again, the blog as a whole is from the COMPLICATED BRAIN of NIC... so, if you read this far. Yippeee, you're complicated like me! :)
